Today didn’t go to well.

Today didn’t go to well. Nauseous, chills, etc. I had a fever earlier. And stomach pains. It seems to have subsided. Then, I had a couple of MIL emails that I just don’t want to go into. And there was passive agression involved. Ugg. And this whole adoptee miasma. I dont get it. I just don’t get it. How could I have been fine for 31 years and then BAM! I’m not fine anymore? Or was the \”fineness\” a coping mechanism? I don’t know. But a mother that I respect sent me a couple sites to check out for support, which I will do tonight when I’m home from work. Really, that’s all I want to do. I don’t want to clean up the house. I don’t want to watch TV, I just want to curl up under a blanket. The weather isn’t helping matters. Sometimes, I really think I’m going crazy. Or that the obviously happy people around me are lying.