I really don’t have a lot of time to write in my OWN blog, as I have other commitments, school starting, my business, my father, and home renovations going on. I am hear though. I’m reading your blogs, I’m reading your tweets… I’m just not talking back right now.
As for dad… They tried to take out his cancer locally, and they couldn’t. It’s too deep. They are going to put him under general and take out a portion of his arm. They’re trying to work out the OR schedule. I still don’t know what kind of cancer it is… And I think my parents are confused. So, I asked them to have the doctor PRINT it out for me. They don’t seem to care what kind – but I CARE. RESEARCH people! It’s good for you and keeps you from being taken, keeps you informed and involved in your own care rather than the therapy happening TO you. Luckilly they have a pushy daughter, and I will get to the bottom of it. They can’t complain. They raised me.
Home renovations continue. The hallway is done (painted and pictures hung, and some narrow furniture.) The bedroom is half done. I still have to clean out under the bed, and then we wait, because I have to buy some things. And well – purchases need to wait. We’ve run out of the small house fund I had set up prior to Poe’s losing his job, but other stuff, paid for by my parents as the owners are happening. As I type, I’m playing guard duty while a window is being ripped out behind me. I have to guard against our indoor cats escaping. But with all the sawing and banging, I just don’t think that’s going to happen.
My kids start school in a week and a half, and so that’ll be a month learning a new routine. They’ll both be on new schedules, and this will be the first year of going to school medicated for Joseph, plus a longer day. Logan will be on the big playground and PE and stuff, plus a longer schedule. And of course, harder homework all around. I can’t believe the summer is almost gone.
So, I know I’m not especially prolific. I’m barely holding it together, truth-be-told. I have some physical stuff going on, practical stuff going on, emotional stuff going on… Really? I’m a basket case, but it’s all internal, and I just can’t afford to externalize it right now. I think I’m the glue holding everything together at the moment, and so I simply can’t lose it. Yet.
At least you’re keeping busy? You don’t have time to lose it? That would be my mantra. On my way to church tonight and I’ll say a special prayer for you guys.
wow! i just found your site. i too have a special kid. i know all about keeping it together. when i finally lose it, its really hard to get it back. i try to schedule losing it time. and give myself a cutoff time. if nothing else, it relieves the tear ducts of buckets of water for awhile. sometimes it works better than others. I am soooo glad to have found your site. that whole feeling alone stuff sucks!!!