Shifts

I’m finding that my brain is shifting.

I’m starting to shift into home mode.

During the day, my mind drifts from work, and I think about what I’d be doing that time of day at home.

Do I know that it’ll be just as hard at home?  Yes.  Do I know that starting my business is hard?  Of course.  But that’s where my heart truly lies.

I keep thinking about my schedule for the day, and how I’m going to accomplish what it is I want to accomplish.  Should I switch to my laptop, and make my desktop a “family” computer?  If so, where do I put it?  Do I want Logan to do his homework when he gets home from Kindergarten, or later when his brother gets home?  Do I want to grocery shop Mondays or Tuesdays?  Am I going to finally work out?  I want to get a radio for the kitchen.  What chores are the boys old enough for?

This is what’s consuming my thoughts for now.  This is why I haven’t been writing very much.  I am enveloped by all of this until things finally shake out.

I had two a-ha moments at work.  One was for a shindig.  I almost said no.  And then I said yes, because it’s my last fancy thing in the industry.  And then there were plans being made for the Christmas party and I thought, Yay!  I don’t have to do a thing – I won’t be here.

A replacement plan fell through, so I still don’t know if I’ll be there all the way through the end of November.  I’m hoping not, but I’m regretfully prepared if I am.

Terribly boring and all consuming.