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But aside from that, she's still completely normal

sisterly responsibilities

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When it comes to Stacey, I’m a little worried that she’ll think I don’t “want” her anymore.

She is having some issues that resulted in her not having her phone with her right now. As a result she’s not calling like she was. The reason she was calling me is because she had free anytime minutes, so calling me was covered under her plan. Anyway, that’s not the case right at the moment.

She’s having a difficult time of it, and needs to vent. Which I’m find with. But everytime she calls, I either don’t get the call, ’cause I’m doing something (like at work) or I can’t talk at that moment in time.

It’s just been a weird set of circumstances is all, and I’m afraid she thinks I don’t like her. Which isn’t true. But she gave me her number at work today to call her. I did, many times, but it was busy every time, and now I’m worried she’ll think I didn’t call.

I don’t know. Maybe I’m just over thinking everything as I am wont to do.

I want a smoke. Dammit.

GAME 12

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What I most strive for in life right now is balance. There are so many things pulling at me, wanting me, calling me, depending on me. There are so many things I want to do. The elusive things are peace and balance. Money, health, employment, nonemployment, issues upon issues opon issues.

I don’t think you can balance all of that without trying to find a measure of peace.

Balance and peace is what I strive for. As much as anyone else. I wish some people in my life could see how lonely I am without it.

Skin Check

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I was going to write a post with pictures of some spots I’m about to go to the doctor for. But it seems that they are just too small to be able to see well in a picture.

Anyhoo… I’m due for my annual skin check. Actually I’m several months late. I have 3 I need checked this time around, plus the one that was removed and tested last year. They just aren’t normal. They’ve changed. Anyway… There was going to be illustrations and all.

I looked at cancer photos online, and quite frankly NONE of them looked like any of the ones I’m having tested, so I bet I’m fine. But I’m very “moley” so I have to take precautions.

GAME 11

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The Clue:

In Florida, at night, unseen
He built it for his “sweet sixteen”
He levered tons of coral stone
And there he lived and died alone

My Answer: Edward Leedskalnin

I’m not liking the smoke free.

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I have now stopped smoking for 3 days, 21 hours, 28 minutes, 26 seconds. That translates into 77 cigarettes NOT smoked, for a savings of $18.67! I have increased my life expectancy by 6 hours, 29 minutes, 28 seconds.

May I tell you how hard it is to sit here in front of the computer and justnot smoking. It sucks. I want one. And have to live without one. I’m trying to find the joy in quitting – but right at this moment, I’m just not seeing it.

Don’t worry, I’m not going to go buy any, but DUDE I want one.

Addiction to anything sucks. But meth was easier than this. Of course not quite as easy to get as smokes, but still. I don’t remember it being this harsh.

So – if anyone out there is still choking themselves, please, have one for me. Please?

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