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God Chooses a Mom

March 19, 2007 By Michele Leave a Comment

This was posted on my mom’s group at Maya’s Mom – I wanted to highlight it here…

God Chooses a Mom
-Erma Bombeck

Most women become mothers by accident, some by choice, a few by social pressures, and a couple by habit. This year, nearly 100,000 women will become mothers of handicapped children. Did you ever wonder how mothers of handicapped children are chosen? Somehow I visualize God hovering over Earth selecting his instruments for propagation with great care and deliberation. As he observes, he instructs his angels to make notes in a giant ledger.

“Armstrong, Beth; son; patron saint, Matthew.

“Forrest, Marjorie; daughter; patron saint, Cecelia.

“Rudledge, Carrie; twins; patron saint…. give her Gerard. He’s used to profanity.”

Finally, he passes a name to an angel and smiles, “Give her a handicapped child.”

The angel is curious. “Why this one, God? She’s so happy.”

“Exactly,” smiles God. “Could I give a handicapped child a mother who does not know laughter? That would be cruel.”

“But has she patience?” asks the angel.

“I don’t want her to have too much patience or she will drown in a sea of self pity and despair. Once the shock and resentment wears off, she’ll handle it. I watched her today. She has that feeling of self and independence. She’ll have to teach the child to live in her world and that’s not going to be easy.”

“But, Lord, I don’t think she even believes in you.”

God smiles. “No matter. I can fix that. This one is perfect. She has just enough selfishness.”

The angel gasps, “Selfishness? Is that a virtue?”

God nods. “If she can’t separate herself from the child occasionally, she’ll never survive. Yes, there is a woman I will bless with a child less then perfect. She doesn’t realize it yet, but she is to be envied. She will never take for granted a ‘spoken word.’ She will never consider a ‘step’ ordinary. When her child says ‘Momma’ for the first time, she will be present at a miracle and know it! When she describes a tree or a sunset to her blind child, she will see it as few people ever see my creations.

“I will permit her to see clearly the things I see – ignorance, cruelty, prejudice – and allow her to rise above them. She will never be alone. I will be at her side every minute of every day of her life because she is doing my work as surely as she is here by my side.”

“And what about her patron saint?” asks the angel, his pen poised in mid air.

God smiles. “A mirror will suffice.”

Old Article

March 15, 2007 By Michele Leave a Comment

An article already published elsewhere has been published again… Disabled Parenting.

Crap

March 14, 2007 By Michele Leave a Comment

Things are such crap I can’t even write about it. It’s all seeming to go down the toilet and I’m frustrated and angry and hurt and sad. So – that’s why not too much updating right now. I’m holding on by my fingernails.

So – without going into a deep thought about any of it – the crapola:

My son is a thief and a liar.

He’s also sick and no one I try has been able to help.

My husband will be jobless in a week and a half.

I know I’ve said it before and each time it’s been true. I’m heavier and uglier than I’ve ever been.

I don’t know where God is. I have no peace. All I see is red anger when I try to pray, followed by tears of desperate unmentionable need.

This is not my depression. I know what that feels like. This is something else. This is life going down the crapper.

And to top it all off my in laws will be here this weekend, and I don’t have a nice gracious bone in my body right now.

Fingernails. Just hangin’ on.

and so it begins…

March 12, 2007 By Michele Leave a Comment

There are things a-changin’ around these parts.

Part one: Poe has resigned and given 2 weeks notice. New job search underway pronto. It is my opinion that he was forced out. I don’t have then energy to go into it right now, but suffice it to say that companies who don’t take family friendly needs into consideration suck.

Part two: Depression? On its way out which makes me think that it is probably seasonally related.

Part three: I’m fat. This “trying to make good choices” while not being on a formal program for Future Milfs? Yeah that’s not working so good. I’ve GAINED. And then… Jay took this picture at Baseball’s opening day (after the jump). I’m verging on obese. I know what I used to look like and that’s not it. I’m not an idiot. I know I’ve had two children in two years and I can’t really expect my body to ever go back to the way it was. But the youngest will be 5 in May. Come on. So. I’ve rejoined WW Online. I’ve also joined PUSH. So – I start counting points tomorrow. I may have to quit the paid version if the job hunt lasts more than a couple of months, but I’m going to start it anyway.

Here’s the thing. I feel like crap. I hurt. I’m tired. I’m tired of everything I hate about myself. I’m also starting a weight only related journal for just this stuff. It’s not fully functioning yet, but I’ll link here when it is. I’ll be keeping tracking things there, so I don’t talk about all that stuff so much here. More for my own purposes than anything else. We’ll see how it goes.

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Published!

March 7, 2007 By Michele Leave a Comment

I got published! Click Gray Area Parenting to see my article on Associated Content.

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