Myspace is scary – in a good way

So, I found two old boyfriends on MySpace recently… OK, technically one wasn’t a “boyfriend” but could have been. Anyway, Uh oh. Now I’m gonna have to name them. Ah – what the hell. I’m not giving last names.

Chad was my very first boyfriend, who seems to have moved back to California. Friend Carol (this is also HER ex boyfriend… Long story – don’t ask) found him and passed the page on to me. He asked for my phone number, which I gave, but he hasn’t called. I hope he does. His email to me sounded like he’d been through a lot. We broke up when we realized we were more like brother and sister. One of the kindest guys to me ever – including adulthood. I hope he’s stayed the same as a man as he was as a boy. I mean I went to kindergarten with him.

And Colin. Oh Colin. HE does know about this site. I was actually looking for other people and someone had him listed as a friend. I sort of took a double take – THAT COLIN? So, we’ve been catching up via email, and he seems to have made a nice life for himself. He’s another one who was always nice to me. And we came thisclose to going out “officially” but I was too scared to go out into the unknown. There are some interesting and very good memories there.

What’s nice about finding these guys? Other than my Poe, very few guys (boys really then) and men later on, have been good to me. Very very very few. Which is sad, really when you think about how many good guys there really are out there, that I’ve had such limited experience with. But these two were good to me. Kind. Loving. Didn’t force me to do anything I didn’t want to do. Which if you’ve been reading a while know is – um – different for me. It’s very good to remember them. I would love to have them back into my life if Poe would be okay with it. I told him about both of them in the interest of full disclosure. Anything else would feel to me like sneaking around.

It’s great to be reminded of “good” people right now.