I’m such an idiot.

I’m such an idiot. I think pregnancy and childbirth has adled my brain. No. I KNOW it. Our phone was just shut off. Because we’re terribly poor and couldn’t pay the bill? NO! Because I was an idiot and didn’t pay it. The same thing happened last month with the cable. This is embarrassing, and painful. I’ve never had my utilities shut off before! I mean how idiotic can I be??? Every month, you pay the rent, phone, gas and electric. This is just something an ADULT DOES! I am an adult, I am an adult. It’s going to take forever to get it on again, of course. And they won’t turn it on until I pay the NEXT bill, and they’re making me pay a deposit as well. I’m such an irresponsible idiot.