I was on my way to work, when I
see this huge bunny in the road, which I thought was road kill. And it
was big. I’m trying to avoid it when I see that its guts are white.
White stuffing. Some poor little person lost their bunny. I wonder if
they tossed it out the window while their parents were driving. Mom &
Dad took one look at the freeway and said to themselves, “I’ll BUY
another dang bunny”.
This scheduling thing is NUTS with the kids. I wrote out the schedules
for the week. I was going to repeat it here so you can actually see the
chaos that is my life – but I’m so sick of it, I decided not to write
it again. Every day is different and nuts. Between my work, Jay’s
work/sleep, Jay’s school, My parents’ schedule/travel schedule, and
Joseph’s baseball, it’s all so crazy. I owe Brandy a butt load of money
for babysitting, but I haven’t gotten paid a real paycheck yet.
(another 2 1/2 weeks for that, the whole first week catch up thing).
So, she’s yet another debt I’ll be paying off in addition to her
regular pay. Ugg. We owe a lot of money. I got it all down on paper the
other night. The only thing that makes me feel better is the only
frivolous bill we have is AOL. In other words a want instead of a need.
So, it’s not like we have gym memberships, and cable, and stuff like
that. I want cable or a satellite or something, but not until we can
actually afford niceties like that. We only had $70 for groceries this
week. And you have to remember that’s 3 people’s food, milk, diapers,
and formula. Not to mention household items like soap. I don’t feel as
guilty about coming back to work when I stop to realize how badly we
need the money. I mean Jay’s doing the best he can. He’s got as good a
job as he can get without an education, and now is going to school so
that he can further his career. We want to do things like save money
for a rainy day, save for college for two kids, and someday, in the
very distant future, buy a house of our own, with a yard. If we can’t
even pay utility bills right now, which is a necessity, then those
other things are never going to happen without my help. But the good
news is, there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. Hopefully.
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