Hmmm. I think I’m tired of being
pregnant. I’ve just entered my 3rd trimester. I’m big and heavy, and am
ready already. I also can’t get rid of this cold. I think we’re going
on 3 weeks now. Maybe the baby is stealing all my “get better” stuff.
As a result, I feel crummy all the time. PLEASE let this stupid cold go
away.
By the way, I can’t remember if I wrote it in here. But. I quit that
telemarketing job. After 2 days. I’d have to say that’s a record for
me. I hated it – and I was AWFUL at it. I thought that I had found a
new job, but I’m starting to think I was scammed. I didn’t pay any
money, I’m not that gullible anymore, but I’ve put a lot of work into
this with no return. So, I think I was scammed. Again. Why is it so
difficult for me to just get a job. We’re going on about 6 months or so
of looking for a job. More I think. This is awful. My parents want the
money we owe them. I want groceries. It’s a never ending cycle. A job
would solve these problems. Even part-time. No one is going to hire me
outside of the home right now. But I was thinking of going back to work
outside of the home, after the baby is born. The problem is – 2 kids
going into daycare. 2 daycare bills we cannot afford. Jay just simply
cannot take care of the kids during the day. When Joseph was sleeping
most of the day, it worked out well. Not anymore. I simply don’t know
what the answer is, and I’m getting desperate. I looked into things
like WIC and foodstamps. But we don’t qualify for one reason. Our car
is worth too much. Our salary, etc. all qualifies. There is NO way I’m
selling that car. We went through 2 cars that didn’t work, and all the
headaches that go with them before this car. We finally have one that
works – and with Jay working nights, and soon to be 2 babies, there’s
no way I’m getting rid of the one reliable thing we own. I can’t see
any way out of this nightmare. How? I’m trying hard not to go into a
full blown depression. Anyone have any ideas?
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