fear…

I’ve come up on a block. I don’t knwo what the problem is. Through my searching and several search angels, I’ve come upon some good address contact info for my two younger siblings, and possibly even the older sister.

I haven’t written them.

I’m scared. I feel like I’m going into a panic attack. I’m trying to calm myself down because I don’t HAVE to write them. Only if I want to. But I DO want to. So why aren’t I?

I know some of the reasons on my older sister. I don’t know the legalities, since I didn’t get the information through whatever agency. I don’t even know if she knows she was adopted. I don’t want to cause problems there.

As for the younger two… Sheer fear of rejection. I’m scared.

I’m scared.