Change.

I hate it.  Change.  I’m terrible at it.

At the same time, if a decision is made, I want it done.  I don’t want little steps.  I don’t want the transition.  I just want it done.

I’m lucky.  I have this man, Poe, my husband…  When I say I want to do something he always backs me up 100%.  I know a lot of people don’t have that.

But I also know that now is not the right time.  I don’t have the necessary steps in place.  To make the changes now would be incredibly immature, just because I want it done.  Sucks to be a grownup.

I feel as though I’m on this huge precipice.  All around me is sky and horizon.  All I have to do is jump.  But I have to wait for the sign – the sign that says, “Now.  Now you jump.”

I just hope that I recognize the voice.