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Betsy, an Introduction

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Ready to Work

Ready to Work

Betsy is my laptop.

I love Betsy.

She’s a pink Dell 17″ Inspiron 1720. Powerful enough to work or network or play WoW (yes, I play WoW.)

She’s also freakin’ huge… and when our monetary situation changes, I hope to also get a netbook for traveling. So I can keep Betsy in my hotel room, and take my netbook with me the rest of the time.

Betsys Face

Betsy's Face

I had a desktop that worked fine, and bought Betsy for BlogHer last year. My old laptop was hopelessly outdated. By the way, if you know what I should do with my old laptop that is really outdated and purchased in 2000, please let me know, ’cause I haven’t a clue. Traveling with Betsy is doable, but heavy. But I love her.

In addition, she saved my ass. For the last couple of weeks, we had some power issues. The power kept going off for maybe a minute or two. But it happened something like 6 times in two days. My desktop couldn’t handle it and fried somehow. I still have hope it can be salvaged, but since my business is online, it was imperative I be able to work. I use Carbonite to backup, so I was able to get the necessary files onto Betsy, and now I work on her full time. But now I’m down to ONLY Betsy.

So, chant it with me. We Love Betsy… We Love Betsy… Consider it like crooning to a car we want to start.

Odds and Ends

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I realize that I’m not very prolific as of late. That’s because nothing is happening that seems worth mentioning. And I’m tired. And my husband is still unemployed. And Joseph’s mental care is taking a toll that I just do not want to get into at the moment. And everyone’s going to die from Mexican Swine H1N1 flu! I’m just floundering a bit. And how many times can one say “did laundry, did dishes, picked up kids, Poe still unemployed”? I don’t want to be boring and have no pressing urge to be heard. Yes, there’s stuff going on with Joseph, but I find it so emotionally draining that I simply don’t want to rehash it again – even for my own journal.

Don’t give up on me.

Fitting Pieces Together

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I dropped a bomb and dissappeared.  Mainly, I just needed to process.

On the blogging front, I’m headed to SXSW this weekend. I feel like I should have backed out considering I have to pay for food – and I just dipped into the student loan payment for groceries this week.  But.  My sponsors took care of the big costs, and both my parents and Poe said that I need to get my business cards out there and mingle.  They’re right.  It just seems like the wrong time to go.  Not to mention I’ll have a roommate.  A perfectly nice stranger.  I know of her, but have never met her.  The problem lying in the fact that I’ve never ever had a hotel roommate before.  My neurosis is worried.

I haven’t had the time to write at Blissfully Domestic or edit at Blog Nosh.  I’m afraid my bosses are going to drop me.

I was on a conference call yesterday with Maria Shriver in regards to the We Connect program, which I’ll be writing about here at some point.

On the home front…  Well…  I’m getting used to having my husband here.  All.The.Time.  There’s a lot of togetherness.  In theory, that’s good.  In practice, I’m having a hard time getting into the groove of a new routine.

We applied for unemployment.  We got a letter stating what our benefits would be.  Then we got another letter that he has to participate in an interview about it.  The last week of March.  He lost his job the last week of February.  We’ve yet to see a cent.  No income.  And we’re waiting on our tax refund, which we’ll be living off of.  This is not good.  Not a nibble yet on his resume.

I don’t want to go back to work outside the home.  I don’t.  My coming home was the best thing that ever happened to this family.  Everyone was thriving.  But I just don’t know how long we can hold on.

The only good news was that I tracked down a bit about Cobra in the new recovery act signed.  I then tracked down a federal labor employee in Washington.  Basically, even though there’s no paperwork in place as of yet (they have 60 days to come up with practices based on the bill) we’ll only need to pay 35% of our Cobra payment.  This is a huge relief, as it means we won’t have to lose medical coverage.

We’ll probably default on Poe’s student loan.  We called and they said that we have no deferments left, and there’s nothing they can do for us.  So.  There’s the credit we built for 10 years down the toilet.

Sigh.

I’m trying to hold it together.  But life kind of sucks right now.

Crazy Making

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So.  I leave for Blissdom tomorrow.   I don’t arrive until 11:30pm.  I awoke with a headache today.  I still need to write up itineraries for my father and husband so neither one of them loses a child along the way.  I still need to get my haircut, nails done, and pack.  I need to check out my laptop (it’s not my main computer) to make sure everything’s running fine.  Not to mention make a costume for my son’s play, which I’m missing, on Friday.

Oh – if you want to meet up or just want to be able to get a hold of me, dm me or email me for my cell number.

BREATHE.

Everything will be fine.  Everything will be fine.

P.S.  Joseph made the baseball team!

Thank God 2008 is Over

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So, my holiday hiatus is over, and I sit here wondering what to write.

In terms of Christmas and New Years…  It’s over.  The trip to the inlaws was surprisingly void of any drama.  For this I am very thankful.

I don’t have any New Year’s resolutions.  I don’t like to make them.  But I have some goals. I plan on concentrating more on my gigs, and my business.   I”ve been inspired to work on my house. My children are taking splendidly to my being home, and I plan on capitalizing on that.

And that pretty much summarizes the New Year, Christmas, and my plans for the coming months.  I would take the time to participate in the reflections I’m seeing…  But quite frankly, 2008 was really really hard for me.  I simply do not wish to rehash it in my mind.

I’m in such a better place now.  Mentally, physically.  Perhaps not spiritually, but I’m working on that.  I have more clarity.  While money is a huge issue right now, coming home has been the best thing I ever could have done for me, personally, and my family.

I do have a bit of news, however.  I’m going to Blissdom 2009.  Yay!  I still have to figure out my travel details, but I’m going.

I’m also still figuring out if I can attend BlogHer in July, but that’s still a bit in the air, and might also depend on our tax refund.

I do want to take a moment and say thank you.  Thank you for being out there.  Thank you for your support.  Sometimes life is hard.  Being a woman is hard.  Being a mother is hard.  Being part of a family is hard.  Being half of a marriage is hard.  But everyday, I can get on the internet and see other women struggling through the same things and know that at the very least – I’m not alone.

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