There are things a-changin’ around these parts.
Part one: Poe has resigned and given 2 weeks notice. New job search underway pronto. It is my opinion that he was forced out. I don’t have then energy to go into it right now, but suffice it to say that companies who don’t take family friendly needs into consideration suck.
Part two: Depression? On its way out which makes me think that it is probably seasonally related.
Part three: I’m fat. This “trying to make good choices” while not being on a formal program for Future Milfs? Yeah that’s not working so good. I’ve GAINED. And then… Jay took this picture at Baseball’s opening day (after the jump). I’m verging on obese. I know what I used to look like and that’s not it. I’m not an idiot. I know I’ve had two children in two years and I can’t really expect my body to ever go back to the way it was. But the youngest will be 5 in May. Come on. So. I’ve rejoined WW Online. I’ve also joined PUSH. So – I start counting points tomorrow. I may have to quit the paid version if the job hunt lasts more than a couple of months, but I’m going to start it anyway.
Here’s the thing. I feel like crap. I hurt. I’m tired. I’m tired of everything I hate about myself. I’m also starting a weight only related journal for just this stuff. It’s not fully functioning yet, but I’ll link here when it is. I’ll be keeping tracking things there, so I don’t talk about all that stuff so much here. More for my own purposes than anything else. We’ll see how it goes.
I cannot believe I’m posting this on my journal.
I don’t have a full length mirror. All I have is the miror above the sink in the bathroom (medicine cabinet). I’m also usually the one behind the camera. That ass! My torso is so wide, my head’s too small for it. Backfat! I’m just so fucking done with it all.
And did I mention I’m beginning my quest to quit smoking April 11th? Oh yeah. It’s gonna be FUUUUUUN around these parts.
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